Im tired.
Still sehed.
Rawr.
Im not happy.
I feel useless.
Rawr.
Really, maybe I am.
If I cant even bring happiness to one person,
How can I bring happiness to many.
Gah, pathetic me.
Goodnights.

Christmas.
A day to be jolly.
But different for me.
And maybe a few people.
Probably the worst christmas for some people.
I dont know.
Christmas didnt feel good this year.
I didnt feel jolly or happy.
I was sad.
I cried.
Christmas was also bad for my friend.
She was plagued by many many many bad things.
Some of which caused by me.
If only time could reverse.
Cliche, but i bet all of us want the ability to do that.
Just in case we make any mistakes.
Dear friend, Im sorry.
Really am.
If you would read this.
Hahaha.
Merry Christmas. (belated)

Reflections.
Mere images?
Or more than meets the eye.
Plainly put, reflections are just images.
That are copied from a source via a medium.
But perhaps reflections mean a lot more.
Reflections of our lives.

I see the people around me.
Their actions, figure of speech.
Somehow, it just makes me feel that.
Their actions is perhaps a reflection of my life.
I see my life in other people.
Ironic?
But perhaps this is the truth?
Perhaps this is how humans are interconnected with each other.
Through similar experiences, thoughts, actions.
Perhaps.
But I guess these reflections do mean something.
They definitely show that we have grown.
Grown for the better of for the worse, I dont know.
But it is sure that we've grown,
And our past memories are being reflected by someone else.
Then this thought comes.
Should we help them, if we had made a mistake.
Or should we just let them be.
Its hard to judge for someone else, especially because
Its not you.
You cant "be" them..

Haha.
Just random bah!

Fog's cleared up?
I guess so Haha.
Genting was fun.
I didnt know i would seriously sit all the roller coaster and rides.
Spaceshot.
Hahahahaha.
Not bad, me got improvement.
Can see these type of rides le hahaha.
But truly, the trip was enjoyable.
Thanks to everyone that went!
You pretty much helepd in one way or another, really.
Hahaha it was indeed enjoyable.
And fun.
Hahahaha.
Memorable even, perhaps.
Gotta push myself liao.
Cannot keep letting others do the job Hahaha.
One day!

Baffled.
Once again.
I dont like this.
I dont like the feeling of being doubted.
I really dont.
It sucks, seriously.
But yeah.
Perhaps there isnt such a thing called complete trust yet in this world.
At least on my side.
Perhaps its just me thinking too much.
I hope so.
But I dont think so.
I think that what im thinking about, has a reason.
And yeah.
Perhaps its just because im always so incredible.
Thats leading to all these doubts.
These rifts, so easily made.
Yet so powerful.
And cause much harm.
Im baffled again.
I hope its too much thinking on my part..
I dont know.

):

Time waits for no man.
No man, you're one lucky guy!
Ok sorry lameness aside.

Its saddening to know that the world's changing.
For the better and for the worse.
It just keeps changing doesnt it.
Change change change, the relative constant to us.
It saddening to know that some people might get hurt by other people's actions.
And its worse if we knew that it was coming but we did nothing.
But sometimes we know we're tried.
But we're just absolutely helpless.
Cos we're just the outsiders so as to speak.
There's a limit to what we can do.
And thats why its saddening.
Rawr.

One day.
Actually just mere hours la.
All the best!
It boils down to this bah.
Just another stepping stone to adulthood!
Wishing all the best for ya all.
God bless ok!

Dont panic. Bring IC and entry proof
Say I love Ryan.
JOKING LA.

Have fun! (:

Today felt more happier.
Abit surreal eh?
Haha but its not!
Idk but im happy.
Cos I received a big big big present!
Two in fact, from the same person.
Really nice lor..
Taking the effort..
Its nice.
Plus its also nice in nature!
Hehe.
And really got alot of creativity!
And its really nice.
Takes alot to do this ok.
Im glad.
Hehe.

Dont opt for best.
Good enough, will do.

And perhaps.
The tiny bit of hope has vaporised into thin air.
It's gone I guess.
Haha.
Cherish what you have.
But its kinda demoralising eh, to be broken so easily.
I dont know.
But I dont need to.

Words.
Dont just hurt, anymore.
They pierce.
It wasnt meant to be.
But, I thought all was fine.
But yeah, words, pierce.
Worse than a spear.
And especially when the person doesnt know it.

Foolish me.
Who am I to think that way.
I shall.
Be contented.
And take all the fruits that come my way.

Sometimes.
Maybe just, sometimes.
Its better to leave it as it is.
Knowing that whether to clear the misunderstanding or not
Doesnt make much of a difference anymore.
The impact remains.
Its just like that.
Misunderstandings happen.
Nothing much you can do to prevent it.
They just, happen.
And boom. Your life has changed.
I dont know.
It just somehow feels emptier..
Though there was nothing much to begin with.
But when you only have that little.
And you lose it.
It makes a load of difference.
But life's like that (:
Sometimes you just gotta push for a smile.
Just push, for that tiny bit of smile.
From yourself.
Though sometimes you're afraid to lose.
The more afraid, the more you lose.
I dont know.b

Haiz.
Misunderstandings?
Idk..
But seriously I didnt know..
But yeah anw sorry. If ya ever read this.
Idk.. perhaps its my negligence.
And my insensitivity.
But I dont wanna lose that closeness yeah.
But perhaps its already lost.
Perhaps.
I dont know.
It sucks.
To lose the closeness.
But yeah its life.
We're still friends.
But perhaps you wouldnt open up as much bah.
Time and time disappointment happens.
Yeah, sorry..

There's this person.
Who's just too strong.
Being strong has its good and bad.
But, she's so strong.
Mentally.
I guess.
Being able to take so much of these things at one go.
Most would crumble.
Imagine a deep, gaping wound.
Stiched up, ready to heal.
And just before it heals completely, it tears apart, deeper than ever.
Its much of like that I would say.
She's too strong sometimes.
But thats just her.
Perhaps its her ability to rise up to challenges, when faced with adversity.
She does have my admiration.
Haha.
She's clumsy though.
Dont think she'll read this unless I tell her.

A leaf in the wind.
Was never meant to be taken into consideration to many.
Perhaps it just seemed like a natural phenomenon.
Indeed it is, and perhaps it is all too common to be taken seriously.
We should measure life by the, common-ness of things I guess.
This makes life more meaningful, to you, to others around you.

The role of some people, is to take up the role of that leaf.
To be just a passing phenomenon in that sense, that has little impact on you.
Others, could have a heavier responsibility, such as an umbrella in the rain.
Sheltering you in times of need.
Protecting you to the very best of its potential.

We always deem the latter as more important.
But we cannot deny the fact that it is because of the leaves,
Which makes the umbrella much more significance.
Without the leaves, there wouldn't be any comparison.
And the significance of the umbrella wouldn't be brought out.

Thus, it can be said that the leaves also are important.
Perhaps some people were meant to be like leaves.
Not-so-important, not-so-significant.
And meant to be taken lightly, and their presence is usually minute.
Thus, they would feel that they are meant to be taken lightly.
But what if a day comes, where, they started assuming the position of an umbrella.
Would they ever, get used to taking up that role?
Perhaps it'd take some time.
To change.

Some just can't hold that burden.
Perhaps im one of those leaves.
Unable to take up such a big responsibility.
Or perhaps just because im cowardly, and want to shirk responsibility.
Or, it could be just, a big burden.

Thanks for all the presents!
Really.. Quite thoughtful Haha.
I guess its these small things that perhaps are more memorable.
Better than material items.
Haha.

Thanks for the notes, cards, tic-tac-toe etc.
And the purple sand!
Haha thanks to all! (:

Grades today were. Fine.
Haha.
Least it wasnt as bad as mid-years.
Still must improve though.
Hope Chem and geog wont be a letdown.
Haha.

Haha its been a while.

We dont seem to notice our surroundings.
Very well.
And.
Even when we do.
Its because.
We know that something's wrong.
Or its too late.
Or its just something that we dont want.
To happen.
I know its a bit vague.
But we're usually lost in our own world Haha.
Because we want some things to happen.
Usually, it doesnt.
Really.
But we still try.
Thinking that we'll make a difference to the situation that we are in.
One that we dont like.
Most of the time, its futile.
But I really gotta say.
Try to be more sensitive.
People around you.
Will not always be there.
Be thankful.
For all the people you have around you.
Some, even choose not to be noticed.
They just give their support.
Behind the scenes.
Frankly speaking, they dont expect much.
Sometimes, they expect nothing at all.
These people just want you to be happy.
To feel blissful.
I am thankful.
I have people around me.
Give their support morally.
And I hope to treasure their small expressions even more.

These people have never left your side.
Rather, you thought they left.
But they are still there.
They never left.
Treasure them.
Dont regret.
Not cherishing them.

The saddest thing about the people giving their support behind the scenes.
Is that they never get acknowledged.
Sometimes even when they give alot.
They are treated like dust.
But they never waiver.
Until you moved on.
I guess thats how people are.
The mind lets go but the heart clings on.
Nevertheless.
People are always by your side.
And, we have feelings.

Ok anw ya I think its very vague Haha.
This post.
One reason.
I compiled many situations.
Haha.

This is bad.
I feel bad.
Ugh.

Somehow.
I think that im rather blessed.
People are having problems at this juncture whilst im not.
Other people's life bring plagued with problems.
Hmm.

I like today.
Though there's been up and downs.
But I like.
Cos today is funny happy, yet painful.

I like how the party was a success.
I thought that we would have little food.
And that people would make a fuss.
But I like.
Cos I was proven wrong.
Some people did go the extra mile.
For that, I thank you.
The food was enjoyable.
Really.
I felt happy.
Hahaha.

Then later I went to watch inception with my classmates.
I enjoyed the movie, and their company too.
Its really fun.
Despite me not fully enjoying movie, I think that it was overall a nice thing.

Haha then I had stomach pain.
Ate too much from the morning hehe.
But thats nothing I guess.
Hehe I like.

Thanks to all!

BAD DAY BAD DAY BAD DAY!

Somehow it just sums up to BAD.
For me it was just below average.
But its just bad.
Grievances, feuds, all sort off.
Released!
Like volcano eruption you know.
All the emotions that have been suppressed over time just.
BOOOM.
Released in one fell swoop.
Resulting in a mess.
Total mess that could be hard to clean up.

Perhaps this just tells us that each of us are walking time bombs.
We all have the explosives in us.
But the detonators, are with the people around us.
People that you dont like, detest, disrepect, and so forth.
The force of this, is massive.
Words can pierce.
Actions can result in devastating consequences.
Take care.
For the power of vengence is tantamount to dire consequences.

Haiz.
Im losing focus.
Somehow I cant focus.
Losing energy somehow.
Being drained.
Ugh.

Numbness.

The act of being numb to a certain thing or situation.
To be immune to something.
To be unaffected pertaining to and event, item, or whatsoever!

Ok that was random lol.
Numb numb.
Its kinda hard to inebriate oneself in something else.
When there's something in a person's mind.
(I used a vocabulary word (: Hehe)
As far as I think arh, I think its really hard to be numb.
To events.
Though they keep recurring and keep repeating.
Serious its THAT hard.
Hehe.

It was drama night today.
I didnt go Haha.
But I think today was overall quite fun.
At the last part in the canteen.
Hehe.
Funny.
2 tickets vs 3 vs none LOL.

Ok Bye for now!

Ok.

I think the first hour at the canteen was good.
The rest...
Not very productive.
Haha went to do timed essays.
Ok ok bah.
Can do except one.
Which havent really studied about.
Anyway its done now!

Im still lacking in a lot of areas.
Math.
Actually everything.
Ok must push.
Go go go!

Hello!

I think today was random.
I split my pants.
Like.
Big.
To Bigger.
And so on LOL.

Ok anyway I would like to say thanks!
For the chocolate Haha.
Seriously, it doesnt matter if its mashed marred etc.
As long as is has sincerity, it counts hahaha.
And I think it has.
Cos most people would rathereat it themselves.
Like the sweet Haha.
Ok so thanks!

Oh and thanks to the person that delivered it.
If the person comes by here Haha.

Oh ya.
I like laksa.
I ate two bowls @.@ Hehe k random bye!

Man I havent posted.
In a long time.

2 days ago.
Was Night-to-day run.
Maybe some of us can call it.
Night-to-night run.
Cos, there wasnt any day left in the event.
Get my drift?

Nonetheless, I guess it was weird.
Cause there was this secret mission that took place.
On that day.
The secret mission was.
Painful.
Fun.
Thrilling.
Exhilarating.
Funny.
Relieved.
Hahaha.

So ya.
Many people didnt stay.
Just wished that I could go quarrel.
Human rights.
Freedom of choice.
Ugh.
Anw its over.
So ya.
Just that I really realised.
The pain of someone making choices for you.
Against your will.
It just stinks.
I mean, who are you to decide?
Thats how some of us may feel.
But really.
Isnt it true?
It stinks.
And they claim its best for us.
"BEST" I'd put it.

Ok I summed up what many people would to say.
To end off:
Dont make choices for people without considering their feelings.
You think you're right.
Contrast to that, you're wrong.
And umm.
Dont abuse your stupid authority and get all high and mighty.
You wont see this.
But we band people know.

It is done. Haha.
It's finally been solved!

Anyway Haha random.
Quoted from somewhere:
期望越高，失望也更大。
倒不如，干脆不要有期望呢？
But its nearly impossible Haha.
Cos we need dreams, ideals etc to work to.
If not we wont improve.
We wont strive.
We'll just be laid back, stay at square one.
And always remain at status quo.
That's not the point of it.

There's no perfect goal or ideal.
I guess we should just work to the best of our capabilities?
And not expect too much.
Expect in moderation.
Lol. That sounds weird but the point is driven across Haha.
I can finally use this!
Slowly but surely, we are improving.
One step at a time.
Given a wish, what will you wish for?
Mine hasnt changed.
But I think this time, I might be more greedy and add more.
Au Revoir (:
To be carefree, and contented. (:

Hmmmm.
Perhaps im currently in a state of paranoia.
Maybe.
Thinking too much?
Reading into things alot?
Maybe.
Just that it feels that way.
And that my body is slowly being torn apart.
By injuries.
And words.
And my thinking.

Wishful thinking?
I guess so.
It just dawned to me that.
Perhaps.
Me think too much.
Me should have never thought in that direction.

Slowly, but surely.
Being torn apart.
Au revoir?

Hello.

Today was ok I guess?
Just that listening compre.
I think may get 16.
Haha ok ok lor.
Wee.

Today my body feels tired.
And my left leg hurts.
Muscle tear maybe hahaha.
Dont like stairs atm.
Haha ok do work.
Oh and I scored.
SOMEHOW.
Haha ok.

Bye!

Hello.
Today I went to watch movie.
With many many people.
Cos it was free!
From the straits times.
Haha.

I dont know.
I dont like human behaviour.
Somehow.
But I can feel why they did it.
But somehow I just dont like.
Maybe because instead of reprimanding.
They could have been courteous.
But really, they are not wrong.
I guess its the nasty stuff that hits hard.

These are the lessons of life, no?

ITS SO FLUFFY IM GONNA DIE!!!!
Ok random.

I think slacked alot today.
Didnt do alot of work.
Ugh.
Ok shall do well for tests.
Chem and Hist and EVERYTHING.
Pfft.
Try.
Harder.

Go me!
Pluck moon!

Rawr.
Status quo?
Haha perhaps.
Star-dee.
At least more.
Less game.
And stone.
But food cant be helped man @.@
A hungry man is an angry man.
Somewhat true bah...

Hehe I like this:
It's so fluffy, im gonna die (:

Somehow.
It just aint feeling right.
More towards the lefty.
Brrrrrrr.
Chem chem math math.
One by one must chiong.
Then Geog?
Humans?
Rawr.

It just feels weird.

Perhaps its just Van de Waals' at work.

Today was fine I guess.
Realised that there's still so much I dont know.
Must buck up.
Grrr.

Confusion.
Hahaha.
Delusion.
Disillusions.
Oh well.

But I still like.

I guess today's a better day.
Somewhat better Haha.
Things are back to status quo.
But yeah.
Something bad happened.
Or rather some things.
But one was resolved, other remains not.
Hope it'll be.

Haha.
I guess.
I really.
Like.
Ya.
Ok Haha.

Rawr.
Today was generally awful.
Ugh.
Cos after school.
Ya.
I mean since you want the result.
Why not do it yourself.
Instead of ranting and mumbling and ranting.
Seriously.
Use your brains.
Haiz.
Im not really gonna pursue.
Yeah but seriously.
Think before you say.
You spoilt the meaning of the game.
The unhappiness when playing.
Its not the game anymore.
You say that perhaps Im lousy.
Then WHY dont you do it?
Pathetic excuses.
Seriously.
Have it your way.
I mean, I dont really care.
You not really gonna affect me.
Who knows, you might spread rumours like wildfire.
But seriously, I dont think I wont win.
And I dont have to do anything to win.
My credibility is enough.
Thats all.

Hahaha.
Today was a normal day I guess.
Spain won Haha.
Octopus is correct, no takoyaki.
Hahaha.

Cookie!
Was placed in my bag secretly.
Not that secret la.
Just that I wasnt around and eating ice-cream.
OH YA ICE CREAM!
I ate 3 :l
Hehe.

Ok anyway the cookie jumped back to cookie monster.
Somehow.
Hope cookie gone.
Ok bye i try to do work.
Hehe.

Today.
Was memorable I guess Haha.
Went to crash.
Well, sort of.
But somehow its not exactly crash.
Hehe. Add-on.

Kite-flying was rather successful Hahaha.
They were good Haha I guess.
Just that kite-picking wasnt that fun.
Muddy >.<

Ok basically I think I like today.
Cos there is a minus in awkwardness.
After dinner Hahaha.
At first it was like, oh no, exposed.
But it worked out in the end Haha.
Enjoy the cookies!
And dont fall sick la @.@
You were super cold lor :l

Haha ok take care bye bye I sleep before 12 today Hehe (:

Perhaps feelings still linger on for both sides.
But I dont think you'll know.
But maybe you do.
I guess its best to leave it.
We be good friends.
Hahaha.
Better not to spoil it.

Ignorance is bliss I would say.
As my blog title depicts.
I know more things now haha.
Then again, who doesnt?

Knowledge is accumulated through experience.
And perhaps books.
But anyway I knew about somethings.
Cheer up ok.
Doubt you'll ever read this.
This friend of mine, is like stressed up.
And facing problems I guess.
Pray that she's fine.
She'll be fine I believe.

Haha.
Old memoirs.
(:

I know the fonts pretty bright.
Highlight the posts if too bright ok Haha.
Today was fun I guess.
Thanks to the organizers!
Dinner was fine Haha.
I pretty much havent ate this slow.
Enjoy food ok.
When you pay.
Hehe.

Then suddenly it sparked off with a random message I guess.
Hehe.
Then it continued on and on and on and on.
Super random.
I promise.
Highly imaginative.
And super duper cute.
Really. Hahaha.

^.^
Its really cute.
Hehe (:

Created this cause I needed a space.
Heh.

Didnt do it earlier as I was lazy.
Anyway, Kaleidoscope is over.
Thanks for all the gifts, cards.
Means a lot really.
I like reading them.
Except some parts.
Makes me go @.@ but Haha.
I like cards.

K study bye!